Hiding My Fear of Losing My Child with a Smile

My Ex is a cold-hearted self-centered person, whose addicted to taking my child away from me.

I quietly cry myself to sleep, after having a surreal day playing on the beach with my child. Is it my last day with my child? If my child is ripped out of my life, will my child be ok? Will I ever see my dhild again? Everybody says they want to help me, but there’s more standing in line to take my child away from me. I don’t trust anyone anymore. I panic when my child cries in public, in fear of being accused of being a bad parent.

No matter what I try to do; to be set free from the mental abuse, I get more depressed. I’m beginning to believe the system is set up this way; so that I will crash and burn, only to lose my child.

My mind is stuck in this loop every night when I’m trying to fall asleep. I start to cry some more because it feels like there’s no hope of being set free from this Mental Abuse Merry-Go-Around.

Then I focus on my child smiling at me because of our enriching experience we just shared together. With ZERO drama. I wiped the tears running down my cheeks, off with the bed sheet and fall to sleep.

It’s ALL WORTH IT, I would do it all over again, without blinking an eye. PERIOD.

Enjoy the Journey…

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